LUST

Lust - a feeling like no other

Lust - four letter word that makes you feel like you are on cloud 9 

Lust - Passion beyond explanation 

Lust - unlike anything real

Lust - beautifully conducted music in between the sheets

Lust - sexxy bodies wrapped up in each others space

Lust - body language that can be misinterpret 

Lust - hands as one

Lust - is such a wonderful feeling

Lust - that is whatI am 

"I lust u" everything about you

Lust - Intense or unrestrained sexual craving

 

HAPPINESS IS…

Waking up next to my love ones (Donald, Donyanna, Lola, & Stitch)

Holding my little ones hand while she falls asleep

Kissing my young man good night

Kissing my husband good night and good morning

Rubbing my doggies bellies

Talking to my dear friends

Smiling at memoires of happy family times

Seeing a smile on my children's' faces when they are happy

Seeing the dogs' tails wag because they are glad to see me

Saying I love you to my family and friends

Reading an awesome book

Learning to let go of the bad memoires

Having food on the table

Having a roof over my head

Having a job

Waking up to another day

HAPPINESS IS THE PANNELL'S and MY TRUE, FAITHFUL, LOVING FRIENDS!!!

New Me

In 2011 I have set my mind to become more positive and stronger.

With that comes:

New goals (lose weight, attend church)

New life changes (better eating habits)

New attitude (nicer words and actions)

New thoughts (positive)

New me (Letting go of the old Yanny)

 

Well I have started my New Year GREAT! I am not as emotional as I was in 2010. I feel at ease and with no worries. I have been able to laugh and be happy with my beautiful family. I have been sleeping with no issues, because my mind is at ease. It is not on overdrive any longer. It feels great! I have been to church and it feels awesome to listen to the word of God and Jesus. I attended a Forgiveness workshop and it helped me understand how to truly forgive. While waiting for the workshop to commence I wrote the following.

Let it go!!!

To truly forgive you have to let go of the hate that lies deep in your heart and soul. You have to learn to love again and cleanse your soul from hate. Once you truly forgive, you will be happier and feel so much better and love in your heart and soul. By saying that you forgave someone but truly did not is a lie and hurts the relationship because deep down inside you still feel resentment towards the wrongdoer. "JUST LET IT GO!!!" Let go of the hurt, angry, resentment, and sadness, in order to let in the happiness, love, joy, and fun into your heart. It will feel so much better once you "LET IT GO!!!"

Muse

You are my muse, you opened up my world to a new adventure know as creative writing. If you did not enter my life I would have never attempted to write anything besides my name to express myself. We crossed paths in the past however never spoke in depth. Now I am so grateful that you crossed my path once again. You are an awesome writer and my muse. I learned how to let out my thoughts through my words. Arranging each word carefully and letting them flow to the paper. Thank you for being my muse, you are GREAT!

Fading (Away) - Rihanna (Lyrics) [HD]

New start

Tomorrow I start my journey in "understanding" the word of God. "Understanding" what it means to believe in a higher power. What is real? I want to be a better, happier, and loving person for 2011 and in order to complete this I will begin by visiting a church named Outlook. I never been there but I want to hear the word and I think I can get that in this place. I want to clear and cleanse my soul. I want to get back to the place where I was truely happy, 2006. 2006 was such an awesome year; I was selected for SFC, moved into a brand new house, I was promoted to SFC, I became a mom again to a beautiful girl, I became the Detachment SGT, and I had a wonderful Thanksgiving and Christmas with just the five of us. That year was so GREAT!! I need to get that feeling again. That love was so amazing and I was not stressing about anything. In other words, LIFE AT THAT TIME WAS GREAT!! I love it!! Will get back there again.