Hypocrite

Hypocrites are leeches to the mind of themselves and others. Hypocrites want to ensure everyone does everything they say but refuse to follow their own footsteps. They say one thing then turn around and do the opposite.  Act like a friend to gather intimate facts about you and then turn to a foe because (maybe) of jealousy. They wish u the best in life, give u advice, and become close to you just to throw it away when they have what they need from you. They stab u in the back after so many moments together, friends? No they are hypocrites and can't be a friend not even their own. Hypocrites are the ones who end up with nothing and hurt. They end up with no friends & they have to look into the mirror at themselves and like what they see. How can they like what they see when they know that they are messy and not as good as they want to appear or sound, they are mean & nasty in the core of their inner beam. Hypocrites are nothing but leeches sucking the life out of real friends. 

SMILE

My smile is a mask for everyone to think that I am happy all of the time. Actually it's a front to hide the pain that is behind the smile. If u look into my eyes u can c the real person and not only the smile. U can see that there is more to me than this beautiful smile; a kind, giving, loving, & fun person. There is more to me than what u c on the outside. Smiles can be deceiving; there are smile of excitement, smile of happiness, smile of sadness, smile of nervousness, smile of leave me the hell alone, smile of silliness, and smile of love. However, u can't really tell which smile is which because they can all look alike. The only way to truly see behind my smile is to truly KNOW ME!  11-24-2010

FENCED

Emotionally FENCED in by a malicious world of inner demons that can destroy my soul from everything I love. FENCED in by thoughts of betrayed and broken promises done by two parties' contributions. FENCED in by thoughts that nothing that was said or done was true and feeling like the whole relationship was a lie or even held together by some type of "glue". "Glue" that is wonderful, beautiful, and innocent to this FENCED in emotions. Emotions on overdrive and mind that does no longer want to be FENCED in by lies or broken promises. Let the gates open up to a world that needs to hear what is deeply FENCED in. A feeling of being worthless and not good enough for a person to love deeply and honestly, this mental stage has my mind FENCED in like a prisoner of war. Release these demons from my mind and let the FENCE open up to an honest and beautiful world of love and kindness. Destroy the FENCE; one piece of metal at a time, free me from this malicious world and thoughts. Let me love without constrains, without FENCED in emotions, without unloved feelings. Open the FENCE for true love and openness!

P.A.I.N.

Pleasure, Anger, Insecure, Numbness

Pain is something that one feels deep inside the body, from the very depth of the soul to the depth of the heart. A love affair starts off with all the passion, attention, and PLEASURE that only a lover can bring, however, for how long can that PLEASURE last? Once the newness of the affair runs out all that is left are broken hearts or a broken heart. Broken hearts turn to ANGER for the lost of the passion that existed between the two lovers. How can something so wonderful turn out to be nothing but a fantasy? This ANGER that grows within the heart has to teach the lovers to never trust another. With ANGER comes INSECURE; INSECURE of your feelings, of the love that was shared, of the openness that was shared, and of how dumb you were for letting someone into your heart in a short period of time. With PAIN comes the NUMBNESS of a broken heart. Try to NUMB yourself by reading more than before, working longer hours, hurting yourself by drinking a little more, biting your nails a little lower, everything to feel PAIN elsewhere and not in your heart and soul.

SUNSHINE <3 11-11-10

Marriage Roles

Who assigns the roles for a man and woman in a marriage? Is it society or the husband and wife? Who says that a man cannot take on the roles that are traditional for a woman? Or that a woman cannot take on the roles of the man? In marriage it should be 50/50, it is a partnership; there is no leader or follower. A man who takes care of the house hold is an excellent, true, wonderful, amazing man who cares for his family no matter what roles are given to him by society. Society cannot take care of his family the way he can and if he has to take care of the house than he will in order to see his wife happy upon her return from business trips. The wife is taking on the role of a husband by always going on business trips. The husband reassures her not to worry about home and to do her job well. Is this marriage role "wrong"? No because who says that a man cannot take the roles traditional for a woman. The marriage is stronger than the ones that have the "traditional" roles of husband and wife because they love each other for the person they are and not for the roles they play. 11-11-10

 

In that moment

In that moment everything seemed to be so beautiful, gentle, and real. In that moment that I saw your face and your smile I melt and became lost in your loveliness. In that moment that you looked into my eyes I felt like the whole world was enclosed within you. That all that mattered was us and not the real world that exist beyond these walls of love. In that moment that your hands touched my skin, my body tingled; especially in my sweet place, I can feel the love that is between us. You kissed me so passionately and so sincere, like we were meant to be at that moment for ever. Our bodies were so close at that moment that we could hear and feel each other's heartbeats, so strong with the excitement that only that moment could bring. Our hands were as one, as our fingers intertwine forgetting about how wrong this is but how good it felt for that moment. In that moment we made love and you showed how lovely and kind you could be, while we both moaned and said sweet words. At that moment we did not want this special feeling to end. However, like all other good things, at that moment had to end, therefore we go back to our lives and think nonstop of that moment that we shared so deeply, so together, so in love or lust even if it was only at the moment. 11-15-10

L.U.S.T.

Longing Ur Sensual Touch

Oh how I am L.U.S.T. right now. I long for your touch to caress every part of my body. I am L.U.S.T. thinking of how good it feels to be in your arms, kissing your beautiful lips, face, ears, neck, hands, chest, and the rest of your sexy body. I am L.U.S.T. on my neck while you rub my breast and work your way down to them. Taste my skin, suck on my nipples and make me feel good, don't stop there, continue to work your way down. L.U.S.T. on my stomach, feeling your hands on me, kissing my stomach, making me go wild and crazy with what's to come next. Continue your journey down the map until you get to the south where the sweet strawberry awaits your mouth and tongue. Taste how sweet the strawberry is, lick and suck on it until all the sweet juices flow like a water fall, don't stop continue on the map and kiss the rest of my body, I have been L.U.S.T. for some time now. You feel so good on me, now enter the forbidden fruit, how nice it feels to be within these warm, wet, tight enclosed walls. Feel the walls close in during the excitement of your touch. Cum on I am L.U.S.T. right now, here it goes, just like being in seventh heaven, I am on the clouds and getting ready to let the rain start, but not until sweet strawberry is fertilized by your juices, now the rain can being. How I am L.U.S.T. always!!