LUST

Lust - a feeling like no other

Lust - four letter word that makes you feel like you are on cloud 9 

Lust - Passion beyond explanation 

Lust - unlike anything real

Lust - beautifully conducted music in between the sheets

Lust - sexxy bodies wrapped up in each others space

Lust - body language that can be misinterpret 

Lust - hands as one

Lust - is such a wonderful feeling

Lust - that is whatI am 

"I lust u" everything about you

Lust - Intense or unrestrained sexual craving

 

HAPPINESS IS…

Waking up next to my love ones (Donald, Donyanna, Lola, & Stitch)

Holding my little ones hand while she falls asleep

Kissing my young man good night

Kissing my husband good night and good morning

Rubbing my doggies bellies

Talking to my dear friends

Smiling at memoires of happy family times

Seeing a smile on my children's' faces when they are happy

Seeing the dogs' tails wag because they are glad to see me

Saying I love you to my family and friends

Reading an awesome book

Learning to let go of the bad memoires

Having food on the table

Having a roof over my head

Having a job

Waking up to another day

HAPPINESS IS THE PANNELL'S and MY TRUE, FAITHFUL, LOVING FRIENDS!!!

New Me

In 2011 I have set my mind to become more positive and stronger.

With that comes:

New goals (lose weight, attend church)

New life changes (better eating habits)

New attitude (nicer words and actions)

New thoughts (positive)

New me (Letting go of the old Yanny)

 

Well I have started my New Year GREAT! I am not as emotional as I was in 2010. I feel at ease and with no worries. I have been able to laugh and be happy with my beautiful family. I have been sleeping with no issues, because my mind is at ease. It is not on overdrive any longer. It feels great! I have been to church and it feels awesome to listen to the word of God and Jesus. I attended a Forgiveness workshop and it helped me understand how to truly forgive. While waiting for the workshop to commence I wrote the following.

Let it go!!!

To truly forgive you have to let go of the hate that lies deep in your heart and soul. You have to learn to love again and cleanse your soul from hate. Once you truly forgive, you will be happier and feel so much better and love in your heart and soul. By saying that you forgave someone but truly did not is a lie and hurts the relationship because deep down inside you still feel resentment towards the wrongdoer. "JUST LET IT GO!!!" Let go of the hurt, angry, resentment, and sadness, in order to let in the happiness, love, joy, and fun into your heart. It will feel so much better once you "LET IT GO!!!"

Muse

You are my muse, you opened up my world to a new adventure know as creative writing. If you did not enter my life I would have never attempted to write anything besides my name to express myself. We crossed paths in the past however never spoke in depth. Now I am so grateful that you crossed my path once again. You are an awesome writer and my muse. I learned how to let out my thoughts through my words. Arranging each word carefully and letting them flow to the paper. Thank you for being my muse, you are GREAT!

Fading (Away) - Rihanna (Lyrics) [HD]

New start

Tomorrow I start my journey in "understanding" the word of God. "Understanding" what it means to believe in a higher power. What is real? I want to be a better, happier, and loving person for 2011 and in order to complete this I will begin by visiting a church named Outlook. I never been there but I want to hear the word and I think I can get that in this place. I want to clear and cleanse my soul. I want to get back to the place where I was truely happy, 2006. 2006 was such an awesome year; I was selected for SFC, moved into a brand new house, I was promoted to SFC, I became a mom again to a beautiful girl, I became the Detachment SGT, and I had a wonderful Thanksgiving and Christmas with just the five of us. That year was so GREAT!! I need to get that feeling again. That love was so amazing and I was not stressing about anything. In other words, LIFE AT THAT TIME WAS GREAT!! I love it!! Will get back there again.
 

I tell them…

I tell everyone that I am doing fine

But am I really fine?

I tell them that I am strong to overcome whatever comes my way

But how strong am I?

I tell them that I am not a fool

But am I a fool for caring?

I tell them that I am not thinking about anything anymore

But why am I lying to myself?

I tell them that I am no longer hurting

But my heart won't let me heal.

I tell them…

Lost

Sometimes life can get hard and u can find yourself Lost. Lost in the person you were and want to be. Lost at the thought of losing friendships and losing love that was so amazing. You can feel just like the TV program, Lost on an island with no escaping. You need someone to find you, to find you before you really lose yourself without any hopes of coming back. Lost with what used to make you happy and sexy. Lost in life waiting to be found. You want love, happiness, joy, and life to find their way back to your heart. To let you love and be happy again. Without any regrets or talks. You want to be found! Lost is not a good thing to be. It can hurt your heart, body, mind, & soul. You have to find your way out if no one finds you. You are beautiful and amazing so don't be Lost for the world is waiting for you to give it life.

Friends

Strong
Leader
Determination
Tranquility
Guidance
Peace

Me Time

Me time is so special, valuable and far in between for me. Enjoying myself with no worries or interruptions, just me, aahhh so peaceful. If I can't enjoy myself than how can others enjoy me? My company is so much fun. I enjoy me by watching 24, reading, eating, and napping, my good chill in day. Not many of these so I have to enjoy whatever days I do have to date me. Lying in bed with my comfy Elmo blanket and hugging my Sock Money, Loca, what a wonderful me time day.

New Year

As the old year heads out of the door it is time to welcome the New Year with opened arms. The old year has to leave, it has to leave and it is not with sad sorrow to watch it leave. 2010 has bought so much heartache to so many people, from terrible health news to lost relationships to financial problems. However, it has also brought new life (births), new friends, and new relationships; new friends that opened up new things in your world, things that you did not believe you could accomplish. Let go of the pain and bitterness that is associated with 2010 and live for a new and better year, a better "YOU". Change things that can be change and let go of the things that can't be change. Let go of the bullshit that cause so much pain in the heart of a beautiful you. Learn new techniques to help you become a happier you. Take on new hobbies, exercise, friends, and love. Forgive the ones that have cause the pain and tell yourself that they are not worth the tears and time that it takes from you. That is time taken away from the ones who truly, honestly love and respect you. So 2010 it is time to leave and hopefully your replacement can make changes for a better tomorrow, a better "YOU". Come on in 2011, bring miracles to cure health problems, mend broken heart, provide jobs for unemployment, stronger love for marriages, laughter for true friends, workouts for the plump ;-), and tranquility for the travelers. Believe that 2011 will bring happiness, joy, love, peace, health, money, and impressive relationships your way. Place your "wants" to the Universe and watch it come true.

WELCOME 2011, we have been waiting on you!!!!